Determined to go out with a bang

I am going to be in control of myself this week! For anyone who has dealt with anxiety and depression you know what it means to feel like you have no control!! I am slowly learning to recognize my triggers and I also am very aware that excercise has a direct link to my mental health. My husband was out of town all week and I was tending my nieces and nephew it was nearly impossible for me to find time to excercise. I couldn't take 6 kids to the gym and I couldn't get up to go on my morning run with no one home with the little guys. I attempted to do some excercise videos which frustrated me further because the family room downstairs where I excercise looked like a bomb hit it. All I could think about was how long it would take to restore order! I need excercise, it gives my mind and body a chance to detox. It is a healthy escape from reality. So even if I have to pay a baby sitter to come over for 2 hours everyday. I will excercise this week. I pay a much greater cost mentally if I don't do something for myself.