THERE IS NOTHING WRONG W/ NEEDING A CONTEST

KRISTIN- thanks for your brave words in both of your last blogs. I appreciate your honesty. CRUSH- thank you for that amazing quote. NO ONE IS PATHETIC for saying how they feel & what they need or don't need! It is NOT wrong to need a contest. I have struggled with food issues since I was 13 & most of that time I have not been over-weight. Whether I have been thin or heavy my head has been sick in regard to food. I have come from the brink of balemia in the dance world to now, where it is amazing that I have let myself get this over-weight & not committed suicide. Actually being over-weight is a victory for me & I mean that honestly. I am proud that I have been able to handle being over-weight mentally. Is that pathetic? Only to people who haven't walked in my shoes. Now I want to just be a healthy weight & I don't care what I have to use to motivate me. I used my mother's approaching death to motivate me to loose weight for her funeral. Is that pathetic? I don't think so. I am now using this contest & my sons upcoming wedding to motivate me. We are all at different places in our hearts & our heads & it doesn't matter where we are as long as we are honest with ourselves. You use any motivation you want (as long as it's moral & healthy) and I will be cheering you on. I love everyone's honesty. That's the start of ALL health. GO! FIGHT! WIN! Everybody!