To Clarify

I am horrible with words. I know winning isn't everything and it is definatly not all about the money. I can't even to begin to describe the weeknesses that run my life. How sad is it that I need to compete to make myself commit to something. How sad is it that I want to win to help me feel validated. I apologize if what I said yesterday hurt anyone's feelings. I need all of your positive to offset my negative attitude. I am grateful for things this game has brought to my life. I'm not drinking soda anymore. I am more aware of everything I put in my body. Sad as it is I need an incentive to force myself to be good. I just get really discouraged easily and instead of having a bad day and getting over it. I beat myself up and give up. I have grown to love all of you and am grateful for your powerful example's. Please forgive my weaknesses.